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So, Today...

So today, i opened my eyes.
I looked at the life past, how time goes on without a care, no matter how we wished it would stop. As we laughed, as we enjoyed each other's company, we prayed under the gleaming sun and the mocking moon that time would halt. But it won't

I opened my ears.
I listened. To the quiet screams of the lives that are not, to the silence of the bench. I listened to the beating of my own hearts, to the silent cries of my own being. "Enough", it said. And i listened.

I tried to touch.
I tried holding on to whichever ropes that lie near, only to realize i was holding on to nothing.  A strong rope that doesn't connect to anything. What use does it have?

I stopped it.
Everything must come to a halt. But some does so reluctantly, and those are the heaviest. So i took the weight and force it to my back. Because by doing that, i'd get stronger. And sometimes the weight feels painful. And i get weaker. But in doing so, i get stronger still.

So, today i feel everything.
To let go of things that are out of my control. To make sure that i have done all i need to. To feel again, that life exists in me and all around me.

And today, i feel alive.

But do i want to?

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