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The Melancholy of The Weirdly Extrovert Introvert Boy

Late night, listening to Yume Sekai, the ending song for SAO, and thinking to myself "wow man how sad you are fking twenty years old and still is alone with absolute jack sht to do at night". Well yer darn right, my other personality. WE are sad, cant blame me alone. *Continue with mad dual personality banters*

I realize that i've been feeling melancholic as of late. Honestly, it's kinda hard to even force a smile. And as i try my hardest to fill this post with light hearted jokes, i just cant. As you all (or maybe future me who gonna read this) know, i made this to set my minds straight. I am not crazy nor mentally deranged, but i actually have been having weird thoughts over the week. And well, it is pretty justifiable. First, i'll soon graduate my uni, enter workplace (which is VERY VERY annoyig because im a lazy and lax fk who has a hard time waking up), and soon enter that age where u have to work (make money somehow). It's all been weighing up my mind, and like any sane person, i talked about it with my girlfriend!!... Except i dont have one so im talking with my imaginary self and also writing this post. But to be honest , i cant say that its all bad. I mean, i'll be finished with this formal learning stuff, get money, be a part of the working society!!.. except, im a weird introvert and i couldnt give less fk about that. And i guess 20 friggin years of being single and see couples all around you actually damages the way you think about overall bf gf relationship. This is an honest confession, but i feel like my standards are getting lower and lower, maybe in a year or ten i could fall in love with a feminine looking tree. Haha if you think that that is sad, wait till you hear the next part... Which gotta have to wait COZ I'D DEFINITELY COME BACK TO THIS FKIN BLOG WHEN I HAVE ANOTHER BAD SHT. So for now just bear with me. Also next post will probably be about travel, but it's been like what.. A month? And i couldnt care less about it. Maybe in the not so near future (probably when and if im able to get a gf LOL THIS FKING RUNNING JOKE) i could tell yall stuff about my past relationships? (Pfft ya kidding me, you cant even have proper conversation with a girl)... Seriously tho, it might happen and when it does just.. dont get bored if u keep talking about negative stuff haha, counting on you, future reader!

P.s. physical attraction without any reasoning is lame, but only talking to your friend that u had a crush on someone without actually doing sht is even lamer.
So keep you eyes straight and your mouth shut, deal with sht on your own unless u really have to get other's help. Sorry for grammar, i cant bother to put proper ' sry

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