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Thought scrambler

It's the beginning of October and i found myself daydreaming in the train. Been awhile since i last posted.. like a month or so? Well it's fine, coz theres hardly any reader aside from myself, which makes it kinda sad. First class of the month and im already late.. stuck in a train, the life of PP student. Lately my life has been bland, with a little bit of sugar sprinkled in between just to make it enough not to vomit. when you get older (by other people's experience) you lose most of your friends and maybe interest in life in general. I'm not feeling despair, it's just that I've been longing that euphoric sensation for awhile. I got no qualms with a constant everyday life. But i guess, as with everything, you just start losing interest when you are faced with familiar situation over and over and over again. Not even gaming, mind you, can take me off of this boredom.
Well luckily that's not all thats been going on fer me. I met a friend who has this wonderful entrepreneur idea and i hoped to be able to get it started or sth. And also i got accepted for internship in PwC, something i shouldve been able to get more excited than i am now, but i simply cant. I dont really like working at those kinds of firms, or any firms in general. Gah.. "just life with it, just go with it" - what a mainstream phrase.
I now really wonder is there any other meaning in writing this blog. Maybe there's a reader out there who'd like to comment? Maybe just to cheer my day a bit? No? Well.. heck u boi. 2 minutes until im late for class and im still in FOKEN MANGGARAI DAMMIT GAHH GIVE ME WINGS ALREADY!!!

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Unknown said…
Lol kinda feel the same :(
November 21, 2017 at 2:22 AM
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